It all happened really quick and tonight is the first night im just left here, alone, with everything. IRony, Timing, change. like 2 weekes ago it started and my subconsiose KNEW something just wanst rite. when he came over after saying he wanted to get me a ring i was instantly turned off by him and i couldn put my finger on it. IT WAS THE DRUGS. it was always the drugs. it will always BE the drugs. and now im left without him but with the muscles memories of a sometimes AMAZING relationship. right now i feel the good. it wasnt gone. but this was bigger then us and i cant be with him because i cant be with that. You have to have a breaking point. but what happens when love is involved. the wound is fresh and i dont know how to make it heal. i need to stay single. GOD GRANT ME THE SERENETY.